What You'd Never Expect

sly glance
shaky hands
lean close
feelings grow
eyes meet
hearts beat
nervous smiles
stretching miles
pulses race
narrowed space
fingers brush
faces flush
eyes flutter
breath shudders
paths shift
thoughts drift

Used

I am nothing
but an object
use me lose me
for your enjoyment
I'm a toy
your porcelain dolly
disregard my
human emotions
Don't you worry
I'll keep quiet
Let me fulfill
your every desire
Don't respect me
I'm not worth it
Its out of sight
and out of mind
so when I cry
just close your eyes

To Be In Love

being in love with you
is like sticking your head out the window
as you're speeding down the highway
and you try to breathe but can't

being in love with you
is like the feeling in your stomach
when you're on the Drop Zone park-ride
and for a minute you're in free fall

being in love with you
is like that moment in the movie
when the good guy takes the flashlight
and walks down the creepy cellar stairs

being in love with you
is like a lucid dream where you can fly
you feel the tug of reality but you
push it aside for one last taste of freedom

being in love with you
is both the best and worst feeling possible
it is a stabbing pain that fills me up
with warmth and joy and tears and fire

The Honest Truth

you're as invasive as sand
creeping into every corner
every crevasse, every crack
of my mind, my heart, my soul
refusing to leave
coming and going
it seems there's no going back

I pulled down the shades
and slipped into the blindfold
accepted the ignorant bliss
but I can no longer ignore
what is blatantly pressing
down onto my mind
and my sore, throbbing heart

you're here, you're here
whether you know it or not
you belong here and you are here
you never really left
I'm holding you here
but you're holding me too
and it feels like what
must be called love

We've All Got Our Suspicions

I've become so wary
suspicious
of everyone's intentions

I've lost my sense of trust
gone
questioning the motives

I second-guess myself
repeatedly
unsure of where I'm going

Keep looking over my shoulder
paranoid
of all the needless gossip

I'm becoming such a hermit
alone
because of my insecurities

Fourth

surrounded by half the city of Boston but never more alone
watching fire in the air to celebrate fire on the ground
breathing in the smoke and chatter and the muffled band behind
pushed along in crowds of thousands, out of many comes just one
swimming with the tide this time because it feels so natural
headed nowhere, headed everywhere, headed anywhere at all

Webs

It doesn't take much to push me over the edge
I live there every day and tend to ignore the safety rails
I'm the kind of girl who crosses streets blindly
I'm the kind of girl who's dangerous to be around

Don't get too close, you'll get caught in my web
Entranced by my charming smile, you'll never even notice
as the ropes of my web wind their way around your chest
slowly suffocating, losing consciousness, slipping away

I'm swallowed up in the jaws of nostalgia
pushing back the regrets and embracing the change
making the promises and accepting the past
its time to follow through at long last

Bittersweet Beauty

you're anything but ordinary
never quite able to blend in
a King among Pawns
fine wine in a paper cup

you walk by my window
and I see you staring in
but you see right through me
as you look at your reflection

your smile exudes energy and
the bittersweet beauty
of a plucked flower
here today and gone tomorrow

Gift Wrapped

passing out the placards
drowning in descriptions
writing on the name-tags
stereotypical inscriptions

take the easy way out
figure out what I could be
slap a name across my face
but never meet the real me

pick apart the pieces of me
you find you like the best
name them, blame them, show them off
and then hide all the rest

I am so much more than what
can fit on Hello I'm blank
don't even try to sum me up
or make me into something fake

I'm real, I'm round, I'm intricate
I'm confusing and I'm detailed
I've more sides than a Rubik's Cube
and I'm equally as veiled

So don't think you can wrap me up
and stick a bow on top
I won't fit in your box today
so you might as well just stop