Whisper Louder

I can't shed enough tears to express what I'm feeling
I can't run far enough in the opposite direction
somewhere along the line I end up back where I started
staring in the face of my greatest loss
my greatest friend
my dearest
my loveliest
my only true
...
it doesn't matter
what's past is past
what's gone won't return
what once was is laid to rest
the lines in the sand have been drawn

why can't I let go of that lone ghostly hand
why can't I shake off this deadly nostalgia
I'm lost and confused and not sure where to go
and your voice echoes by all the while

I've been reduced to living for whispers

The bad decisions add up, don't they?

and yet for all her beauty

she cried herself to sleep again


with no one to blame


but


herself

Dusk Falls

the sun it setting now
the last few rays peek over the horizon
but is that what determines night?
because I could have sworn dusk fell a long time ago

its time to say goodbye
this chain holds me a little too tight
I can't keep going forward
when I'm continually pulled in reverse

I've set myself in an invisible cage
but I'm here holding the key
its time to do what I know I need to do
its time to set myself free

Whisper

In the dead of the winter
when icicles grow
and snow flakes fall lazily
upon the fresh snow
the chill in the air
will blow past my fast
and I'll hear you in the whisper of the breeze

When spring time arrives
and the flowers awake
with their faces turn upwards
as the cold spell does break
the air is still chilly
as it brushes past my cheek
and I'll hear you in the whisper of the breeze

Seasons change once again
and summer turns hotter
the days are so long
and the plants yearn for water
more welcome than ever
the wind brings relief
and I'll hear you in the whisper of the breeze

Now autumn approaches
smells of spices waft by
and colors are shifting
as the plants start to die
and the wind, it turns chilly
as it rustles the leaves
and I hear you in the whisper of the breeze

To Say Goodbye In A Million Ways Is Simply Impossible

thank you in a million ways
for all the million little things
and all the million little words
that made my heart skip
made me shiver

thank you in a million ways
for every single little day
and every knowing loving look
that made me know
you knew me so well

thank you in a million ways
for all the times you made it clear
you loved me and you cared so deeply
cared so truly
through it all

Panic Ensues

tears falling faster
leaving confused trails
down my cold cheeks

old comforts gone
and new comforts
suddenly lacking comfort...

dizziness too familiar
grasping my consciousness
pulling me down

I miss you
secretly, strongly, crazily
can't let go

which way's up
what to do
I don't know

never so unsure
who am I
who are you

turning circles now
blindness all consuming
feeling myself falling

no one here
to catch me
its my fault

let me fall

Unpredictable

let's be unpredictable
let's dance in the rain
and run down the halls
and skip through the streets
and sing at the top of our lungs

let's be unpredictable
let's share our deepest secrets
and be unrealistic
and dream the biggest dreams
and never look back

let's be unpredictable
let's kiss on the beach
and roll in the sand
and hold each other close
and fall in love again