In the cinema of my mind
every room shows
a different life
a different future
a different me
I'm in a maze
that's never-ending
with thirty tunnels
thirty exists
thirty doors
Which do I take?
Every second ticking by
resounding loudly
threatening ominously
choose well, stupid girl
think fast
every step
just might be
in the wrong direction
only problem is I've lost my compass
Friday, September 23, 2011
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Don't Feed The Mouth That Bites You
I'm finding myself running in circles
that run into walls
and I stumble backwards
wondering how I got where
I seem to be now
because I can't remember
quite where I was going
There once was a time
when I was so certain
of where I was going
and where I had been
but that time is long gone
my path's long since been convoluted
and the one who erased the trail
stands before me now offering direction
How can I take the hand that dropped me?
How can I trust the mouth that lied?
What can I say in explanation
you'll never know just what you took
Do you know what you left behind
back on the day I can't erase from my mind?
I've had to learn to stand up again
after falling so very far
What do you expect for me to do now?
I'm stumbling, yes, but at least now I'm walking
that run into walls
and I stumble backwards
wondering how I got where
I seem to be now
because I can't remember
quite where I was going
There once was a time
when I was so certain
of where I was going
and where I had been
but that time is long gone
my path's long since been convoluted
and the one who erased the trail
stands before me now offering direction
How can I take the hand that dropped me?
How can I trust the mouth that lied?
What can I say in explanation
you'll never know just what you took
Do you know what you left behind
back on the day I can't erase from my mind?
I've had to learn to stand up again
after falling so very far
What do you expect for me to do now?
I'm stumbling, yes, but at least now I'm walking
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Pulling the Trigger
Everything hurts
Everything hurts
Everything hurts
Nothing makes sense
The tears keep on falling
Surrounded by mirrors
Where's the real me?
Where's the real you?
Falling into arms
but who's arms they are
its impossible to say
Someone dries my tears
but the hand is unfamiliar
I've walked a lot farther, yes
but have I made any distance?
With every new answer
comes a million new questions
Is this what a smile costs?
Everything hurts
Everything hurts
Nothing makes sense
The tears keep on falling
Surrounded by mirrors
Where's the real me?
Where's the real you?
Falling into arms
but who's arms they are
its impossible to say
Someone dries my tears
but the hand is unfamiliar
I've walked a lot farther, yes
but have I made any distance?
With every new answer
comes a million new questions
Is this what a smile costs?
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Fly Paper
my life is made of fly paper
everyone I brush by leaves a little something behind
with every new character I gain a new perspective
every new relationship adds new characteristics
I'm eclectic and scattered
like a jigsaw puzzle completed from 5 different sets
a lego castle of assorted pieces
a patchwork quilt of emotion and experience
but is this a bad thing?
am I expected to peel off the layers to find my true self beneath?
I am human made up of the lives I've lived by myself and with others
a real life matryoshka doll, but is the smallest doll the truest?
every time I have loved I have lost a little,
gained a little, lived a little
looking at me now as compared to the day I was born
you would see me plus life plus love plus hate plus emotion plus experience
and can it be said that there is a "me" separate from the rest?
I don't think so.
who am I?
I am a summation of who I have been, who I want to be
who I have known, who I have loved
what I have lost, what I strive for.
taking away any or all of these vital elements
removes the "me" from Me
yes, I have changed...because I have lived.
everyone I brush by leaves a little something behind
with every new character I gain a new perspective
every new relationship adds new characteristics
I'm eclectic and scattered
like a jigsaw puzzle completed from 5 different sets
a lego castle of assorted pieces
a patchwork quilt of emotion and experience
but is this a bad thing?
am I expected to peel off the layers to find my true self beneath?
I am human made up of the lives I've lived by myself and with others
a real life matryoshka doll, but is the smallest doll the truest?
every time I have loved I have lost a little,
gained a little, lived a little
looking at me now as compared to the day I was born
you would see me plus life plus love plus hate plus emotion plus experience
and can it be said that there is a "me" separate from the rest?
I don't think so.
who am I?
I am a summation of who I have been, who I want to be
who I have known, who I have loved
what I have lost, what I strive for.
taking away any or all of these vital elements
removes the "me" from Me
yes, I have changed...because I have lived.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Passing Thoughts
let me hold your shaking hands
because mine are trembling, too
I am a professional illusionist
so close your eyes and let yourself believe
you pass by and catch my eye
a stranded glance, a feeble attempt
the crowded room might as well be empty
when you're the only one on my radar
because mine are trembling, too
I am a professional illusionist
so close your eyes and let yourself believe
you pass by and catch my eye
a stranded glance, a feeble attempt
the crowded room might as well be empty
when you're the only one on my radar
Monday, September 5, 2011
Such a Fall As This
my mind could not be a more confusing place
twisting and turning through endless corridors
halls that lead Nowhere and Everywhere together
all bringing me back to the same Room of Uncertainty
is there an answer to be found?
does this maze even have an end?
can I believe in happily ever afters?
will anything ever make sense again?
up is down and left is right
I'm spinning still and lying around
and sitting up and standing down and
falling, falling, falling, falling
"After such a fall as this I shall think nothing of tumbling down stairs!"
Please, Someone, help me up
twisting and turning through endless corridors
halls that lead Nowhere and Everywhere together
all bringing me back to the same Room of Uncertainty
is there an answer to be found?
does this maze even have an end?
can I believe in happily ever afters?
will anything ever make sense again?
up is down and left is right
I'm spinning still and lying around
and sitting up and standing down and
falling, falling, falling, falling
"After such a fall as this I shall think nothing of tumbling down stairs!"
Please, Someone, help me up
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Doors
"you could get any guy you want"
"you're beautiful"
"you're hott"
"you are unlike anyone else"
"life must be so easy for you"
that's funny.
I miss you
I miss trusting
I miss believing in love
doors open
doors close
doors lock
"you're beautiful"
"you're hott"
"you are unlike anyone else"
"life must be so easy for you"
that's funny.
I miss you
I miss trusting
I miss believing in love
doors open
doors close
doors lock
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