Little Alice

frozen 

immobile

staring at my phone

shaking 

crying

i'm all alone

the pencil in my hands

falls to the floor

the note i was writing

remembered no more 

how long can i stand 

how long will i fall 

i love you

i hate you 

i'm at a brick wall

i'm tired of lies

but what is the truth?

what i once knew

is now an untruth?

i'm in a long hallway 

looking left and right 

not knowing which way to go 

my breath is caught tight

each way looks grim

is there a light at the end?

falseness and reality 

now seem to blend

has this all been a dream

or maybe a nightmare

either way the ups and downs

are more than i can bare

i'm stuck at an impasse 

there's really no way 

to come out happy

so maybe i'll stay

just where i am

no one needs to know

that i'm one of the damned 

that i put on a show

its time to come back, little Alice,

from Wonderland

or wherever you were

because i know firsthand

that rabbits don't talk

and dreams don't come true

and life won't make sense

no matter what you do

so come back little Alice

its time to awake 

you can't keep on living

a silly heartache

you can't keep on feeding 

this silly little fire

the dreams in your head

have long since expired 

so put down your pencil 

and lock up your heart

and hide away your secrets

cause sharing them's not smart

you'll be safe once again

all alone in your mind

and go back to your ways 

of stumbling blind 

with the pain that accompanies

dreams that fall through 

with no one right there

to tell them all to

but its not such a bad thing

its worked for so long

and fooling your friends 

isn't really so wrong

its all for the best

if everyone just thinks

that you are so happy

while your soul ship sinks